Loneliness

These days my mind got totally disturbed with few things.Tried to share the same with my friends.
But the sooner I started they will get bored to hear such stories , Infact some of them made fun outa that.
So I thought better jot down the same in my blog. Infact not to get sympathy or something ;-) Just to get some relaxation

Caution : you might also get bored to read such a boring story I have written.
If time is valuble for you then, I suggest you better not continue to read.If any body gets hurt after reading this, I can't help it except saying Sorry.

There was a guy who got a job in a city, where he never thought of going to , even in his Dreams.
Ofcourse ! situations forced him to take such decision.

His mind struggled with some thoughts
        "I am gonna miss my friends badly ..."
                How about your career , Did u ever think about it ?
        "I am gonna miss all the fun that I had with them ..."
                Just Think about future.Itz in ur hands and U can make it more happy.
        "I think this will become the toughest phase of my life"
                If you stay here for some more time , things will become much worse

Most of his friends convinced him to continue with his decision instead of bringing more troubles and tensions going fwd. Many people told him not to worry about the future and the new place.
He made his mind saying "Okay, this is the time to start a new life, get new friends, face the new challenges"

Finally he went there and started his new life ,
In the first few days itself he found hell outa city and office, Yeah it was real hell.
He missed his friends badly and find himself alone in the new city and office.
also the climate of the city , Mosquito bites , Power cuts in the mid nights & the inftastructure of the new ofice made him soo frustrated.Started regreting about his decision.Soon two of his friends came to the city and he was soo excited about it , However the happiness remained only for few days.He had to leave them and went to new place for his personal benfits (may be selfishness)
One day he got soo frusrtated and says

"Oh God ! what happened to the people around me , not even a single person cares whether I existed and working in their team.Though people are sitting around me .. still I am feeling alone.
What will be your reaction, when no body asks you , whether you can join them for snacks , playing TT or atleast for a cuppa cofeee ?"
A few times he tried joining them though they didn't ask him , expecting that from the next time onwards they will def'ly ask him to join them.Neways, that never happened.

So what are you gonna do now ? cry like a girl ? tatz the real stupidity, is n't it ?
But if every one ignores you then such feeling can't be explained, Its pathetic, more than hell.
Emotional sentence by a Friend ... "The longest distance on the earth isn't from North to South It is when i stand infront of you and you ignore me"


I don't think changing the place will bring you more happiness in your life. Infact there is no gaurenty that you will be recognized in another place.
Stand for such hurdles and this is how I used to say to myself all the time , However I can't convince myself all the time right.
This time it drags me into deep depression , thinking always I am alone , Could not able to concentrate on Work :(

Comeon dude , Wakeup , Don't be soo foolish , there are ways to get out of these things.

* Well, So your problem is, some ppl are avoiding and ignoring you right.
mere baath suno , ye sab bhool jao. Why the hell do you want to get recognized by others
First of all you are not a Legend or something and afterall they are some one whom you met in your life just like any other passenger u met while you are travelling.

* Is the reason something like communication problem or racism (I know itz very big word to use).
Then try to be good at those areas where you are lack something If the reason is racism then don't even think about it much ... Just forget it

*you know what ? You are unnecessarily thinking some one is not recognizing you , but how about your old friends and family ?When did u call them recently, Stupid , I know you are not contacting any one and getting worried about some Junk.You should never forget your old friends & family. They are your real friends. get in touch with them first.

* Are you not able to concentrate on your work ?Don't be soo foolish always thinking that you are ignored by some one.Just focus and live your life as you used to do in your earlier days .

* I think once up on a time you were a good devotee :P , But these days I could see you most of the times in malls spending money on some shopping and stuff.Instead  why don't you visit temples and belive in God.

Still if you say you are not feeling good and thinking about the same Junk , No body can help you. .... After all I am your soul .. ! :-)

Don't Ignore me, Just consider me as your friend

I doubt whether I am alive or dead at this moment, Yeah what ever you read was correct.Right now this is the feeling in my mind.

If you care more about one person and that person didn't even consider you as a person/friend what ever , then what will be your feeling ?

Possible responses could be

           Why the hell are you more worrying about him/her , Live ur self and let him/her too.

            Oh Wait wait ,  Thanks a lot for such an advice ,

           However, FYI,  I am neither killing myself nor killing him/her.

           Hey don't be so emotion dude,  In which century you are ? just Ignore such small stupid things 

           OMG !!! comeon please , I am not crying and Please don't make me frustrate too.

Yeah your guess is correct I am Nerd & stubborn, but I really don't care

At this moment I am feeling so sad because I missed my friends , 

If the question is 'Didnt find new friends in your new city atleast in work place ? My answer would be NOPE. I could not find real friends.

Howcome pople become so unmature these days , If you care more about one person the response from the other person also need not be same as yours , but atleast he/she should consider you as a humanbeing. 

You need not spend money for me , you need not listen to everything what ever I am saying. 

Tease me,  no issues. Make fun outa me, Still no issues , but please do not Ignore me , that is more painful.

Atleast consider me as your friend, Thatz all I am expecting from U

PS : Dear friend, You might read this at some point of time , 

       I can't tell you directly, so here 

       "Please don't be selfish all the times.You are like a cute kid to me.

       Eevery one might not think the same way so it might gives wrong impression"

       For sure you don't get all I have written is about you,
       Stupid fellow :P I guess you got it now ?

What Life Means ...

        Earlier, Life meant:

       A winter evening, Bunch of friends, Mild rain .., Cuppa Coffee.

            100 bucks for petrol , Two rusty old bikes.., An open road. Maggi noodles, A Friends house , 3.25 am.., Sharing food.. and Love.MidNight surprise, Birthday Bumps , Cake cutting

Last minute exam preparations, One night, One book.., 8 duffers.

One girl,  Bunch of friends ..., And a fight :-)

    Today life means :

Old friends, Separate cities, Separate lives.,
And endless efforts to earn money & get peace.

    Today what you are looking in life ..,
Is probably that you lost in your way here.

Remember old friends, old times and old memories you shared,Reconnect, rejoice!

 PS : Copied , but slightly modified  :P

"Random Thoughts on My Friends, Friendship and My Birthday" - Itz my story:-)

Itz been very long time I have written my last blog, delaying this post since a month ago....
This time I am going to write about my Friends and Friendship :-)

In my childhood I didn`t have many friends in my village.I think it is 1994 and I was in 4th Std.
I found one nice, decent kid , our thoughts were almost similar and soon we became Best buddies.
Till 10th std we studied together, later we went to different colleges and chosen our own career paths.
(Now I am into IT and he is into Central Government)

Intermediate (11 and 12th class) was the period where I could hardly  find two friends,
All other guys were like kids nobody had a mature mind.I used to show pity on them :P

Next phase of my life was amazing , it was my Engeneering,
This was the time where I spent most memorable and lovely Years in my life.
I found a bunch of friends, We all together used to ROCK in BTech.
Watching movies , writing our assignments and Record books together, spending time in cafeterias,
Commenting on gals and Lecturers, Ragging juniors, parties and lot more stuff. Really missing those beautiful days yaar :( Here there is no single best friend Kinda stuff , Must say all of my batch mates are my Best Buddies.

Fortunately (Infact luckily) I got a job in a big MNC as a Software Engg , But in my team I couldn't find any friends.In the initial days every one was working like a serious workholic, So I could find only collegues but not friends.Later moved to some other team where I found good friends but it was for few months and again back to the workholic team.(Lolz :P)

At that time, next to my apartment there was a guy, who was also working in my company.
I still remember our first day`s conversation and I still feel very guilty about my rude behaviour (though not exactly rude ... :P ) shown to him.We both were discussing about the office and Hyd (He was new to Office aswell to City) He was standing outside my room and I didn't even ask him to come inside.The next day he invited me to his room and the other day for dinner.That moment I had to realize, how stupid I was. Now it is my helplessness to discuss it though

I used to adopt some of his good qualities.So soon I bcm a big fan to this guy , A very gud friend of mine to remeber for ever in my life ;-) I don't have much space to write about you Dude , may be in some other blog ;-)

Oh ! , I Forgot to say, He usually calls every one "DUDE" instead with their names (It shows affection not trying to look "cool"  though) In my case "DUDE" has become my nick name and most of my friends started calling me DUDE instead my real name.Even some of my friends will call me rats thatz a whole different story ...

As I mentioned in my previous blog I got few friends at my current office.
We used to Enjoy a lot. I must be so lucky to have such nice frineds atleast for few months.

My Birthday falls on an auspicious day of Makara Sankranti(Pongal),I feel so proud about it ;-)
But still two reasons made me disappoint on every B'day in my school and college days.

First Reason, It is the only time in an year you will get a new dress.
My concern is ,Not only you, every one will wear new dresses on that day (Coz Itz a big festival atleast in Costal Andhra).As I always die for kinda Uniqueness but This left me disappointed all over the years.
Second Reason, I used to miss the chocolate distribution event at school as all other kids do on their B'days.

But since few years My life style has completely changed because of my friends,

My friends make my Birthdays as the most memorable moments in life.
This Birthday is some what more spl than others Because, this time I had cut 3 cakes... 8-)

and got two Amazing gifts from my friends.Thanks a lot my dear friends.

Keep doing this every year (lolz :P )

And so thats all about my friendship phase of my life till now, and at the moment I guess I am enjoying a lot with my friends. 

I guess I am kinda lucky enough cos when I look back, I had something to say about my friends and friendship which is a very important part of everyones life.

Thanks guys, thanks a lot for coming to my blog and spending time on it , I guess I didnt disappoint u.. but still u can shoot me with anything and everything you want in the comments section ... all yours... :P